Hi, can I miss you?
What happened? I have no idea of what happened or if I did anything wrong. I don’t know who built this stupid huge wall between us. I miss you, I really do. I miss the cheerful, the bully and the loud you. Remember how close we were before? It just feels bad that now, you can’t even start a conversation with me. It’s as if no talking will be done if I won’t initiate it. What happened? What did I do? Can you please tell me because I’m really going crazy just thinking about it. I miss you, I miss who you were before. I am really hoping that someday, you and I could be that good of friends again.
I’ve told this to a friend and he told me that maybe I am liking you already. I’ve tried to think about it but nope, I can’t get an answer. I don’t know if I like you but I know how much I care about you. I know how much I care about you not being the way you were to me before. And I know how much I miss that version of you. Talk to me, tell me everything i need to know. I really miss you buddy :(
No, Robb no!!!!!
Nagseselos ako. Sa inyo. Nope, scratch that. Naiinggit ako. Sa kanya.
Hindi ako nagseselos kasi alam kong hindi niyo gusto yung isa’t isa, I’m certain about that. Pero naiinggit lang ako sa kanya kasi ang close niyo. Ang dami mong nagagawa sa kanya na hindi mo kayang gawin sakin. Sana ganun ka din ka-komportable sakin, sana. Kaso hindi e. Nakakalungkot. Pero wala naman akong magawa e.
Please don’t mind this post. Haha. Random feels lang as of this moment =))
I just realized that I’ve been putting so much effort on you these past few days/weeks. And it is tiring. It really is.
I just suddenly realized that you really can’t force yourself to feel something towards someone. Everything is there, his efforts and all, I can see that. But I really can’t force myself to give back. I know what I want, he’s giving it to me. But I also know who I want and he’s suddenly out of the picture. The thing is we all want to feel important to someone. Let’s admit it, we always want to be appreciated by the people around us. I am really happy with all the attentions I am receiving from him. That’s why I think that I’m starting to give him false hopes about me, about us. It’s overwhelming but do you think that I should stop him? I don’t know.
I hope we can teach ourselves to love the people who are worth it, the people who are always there for us, the people who love us. But nope, we can’t. The worst part is we love sticking around with the people who don’t even care about us, the people who don’t give a damn. We tend to stay by there side even if we don’t get anything back. It’s as if we love to hurt ourselves because there are people who are willing to do everything for us but we choose to be with the people who will not even give up a minute to be with us. But let’s admit it, the happiness will always be greater than the sadness. Smiles will always be greater than sighs. Even if these people became the usual reasons for our unhappy days, the very few moments that they make us happy will always weigh greater. It’s like the million reasons to leave are always being outweighed by the single reason to stay. We won’t care however painful it is to be with them because we know that the pain will be greater if we leave. As long as we get a little reward of happiness once in a while, we will never leave even though the ratio lies between a hundred pouts to a single smile.
Just a random thought.