I don’t know what the real deal is between us. I don’t even know what I want. But I’m happy. I’m not sure if some decisions can make me happier but I’m not taking the risks for now because I’m okay with this setup. I want to enjoy whatever we have now and it really feels good to know that I’m also making you happy :)
I was really surprised earlier when I woke up and read your morning message. It’s not actually a big deal, your message was just something like ‘good morning, good luck sa speech….blah blah blah” but it really made me smile. I feel like it made me smile more than the usual long hours of chat that we’ve been doing recently. It’s the thought. It’s the casualty of you saying good morning and wishing me luck for my class before you go to school. It’s the feeling of waking up and reading that message. It’s simple, yes, but I’m happy that we treat each other like this now. We can now show each other how much we care without having second thoughts. I’m really happy that we’re starting to get casual about these things. Thank you for making me smile today! :)
I just want to know if it’s still possible. I wish someone will magically come to me and tell me the answer to my question. I just really really need to know because I’ve been thinking about it for almost a week now and I don’t want to anymore. It”s tiring, it’s really tiring.
I really want to talk to you about some things but I couldn’t get a chance. I am so ready to tell you the things that matter. Because this time, I want it to be different. I want to be braver, I want to take risks, I just want to do the things that I want without holding back. If you really want to know what’s going on, I am more than willing and ready to tell you everything, just ask for it.
Sorry. Sorry kung umasa ko na baka this time, pwede na. Sorry kung umasa ko na worth it mag-try ulit. Sorry kung mali na naman ako. Sorry.
P.S. “I miss you” -> this is what I wanted to tell you. I’m sorry if I can’t say it when you asked me about it few days ago.
And darling I will be loving you ‘til we’re 70.
And baby my heart could still fall as hard at 23.
And I’m thinking ‘bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe just the touch of a hand
For me, I fall in love with you every single day.
I really miss you.
This day is just too tiring for me, both in a good and bad way. A lot of things happened and I don’t even know where to start, so please forgive this post for being unorganized.
1. SoComsci Induction
- FAIL, I must say. I was assigned in a station with Earl and there were a lot of not-so-good things that happened. I don’t want to elaborate further, it’s not that big of a deal. Hahaha. But it was still fun especially the tambay session afterwards with my blockmates!
2. SoComsci Acquaintance Party
- FUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNN!!!!! Seriously. I love this bunch! And we were so ‘bibo’, all of us! There’s just so much laughter going on earlier. Haha.
3. WHY WERE YOU NOT THERE?
- I’m such a dork. I was actually waiting for you earlier. Get ready for the dork-er trivia: You’re one of the reasons why I went in the first place hahahaha but you’re not there hahahahaha =))
4. PLEASE STOP TRYING TO BRING IT BACK GUYS
- There was this game and yeah, I won’t tell you the details. If you were there and you know me enough, you’ll probably know what ‘game’ I am talking about. I just… I was trying to get rid of having an interaction with him because I know that just the slightest interaction will cause my friends to tease me. Matagal ng wala. I’m not into him for quite a time now and my friends can’t seem to believe in that. But please, I really really want to stop the teasing and everything. It was long gone and I hate that some people thinks that I’m dying over him. Oh God.
5. I JUST LOVE MY FRIENDS TOO MUCH.
- As much as I want to, I really can’t talk about it right now. I just want to say that I love them and I feel like hugging each one of them right now.