I really miss you.
This day is just too tiring for me, both in a good and bad way. A lot of things happened and I don’t even know where to start, so please forgive this post for being unorganized.
1. SoComsci Induction
- FAIL, I must say. I was assigned in a station with Earl and there were a lot of not-so-good things that happened. I don’t want to elaborate further, it’s not that big of a deal. Hahaha. But it was still fun especially the tambay session afterwards with my blockmates!
2. SoComsci Acquaintance Party
- FUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNN!!!!! Seriously. I love this bunch! And we were so ‘bibo’, all of us! There’s just so much laughter going on earlier. Haha.
3. WHY WERE YOU NOT THERE?
- I’m such a dork. I was actually waiting for you earlier. Get ready for the dork-er trivia: You’re one of the reasons why I went in the first place hahahaha but you’re not there hahahahaha =))
4. PLEASE STOP TRYING TO BRING IT BACK GUYS
- There was this game and yeah, I won’t tell you the details. If you were there and you know me enough, you’ll probably know what ‘game’ I am talking about. I just… I was trying to get rid of having an interaction with him because I know that just the slightest interaction will cause my friends to tease me. Matagal ng wala. I’m not into him for quite a time now and my friends can’t seem to believe in that. But please, I really really want to stop the teasing and everything. It was long gone and I hate that some people thinks that I’m dying over him. Oh God.
5. I JUST LOVE MY FRIENDS TOO MUCH.
- As much as I want to, I really can’t talk about it right now. I just want to say that I love them and I feel like hugging each one of them right now.
Oh stop it, you! :”“”“”“”“> Hahahaha. I’m such a dork. I know super babaw lang pero kinikilig talaga ko hahahahahahahahahaha. The last time I saw you was way back in our enrollment period so I’m really happy with our little online interactions right now. Let’s stay like this please? I hope we can also talk in person, that would be really really great. Hehehehehehe god, I feel so giddy right now =))))
Sometimes, I really feel nothing towards you anymore. I stopped trying to impress you, I stopped trying to get every chance that I can to talk to you, I stopped making efforts just to have an interaction with you. So I’m pretty sure that whatever it is that I’m feeling now, it’s wayyyy less than before. Because I already stopped trying.
But the fact still remains that I still get butterflies whenever we have a close interaction with each other. I still look around for you. I still want to be updated about your life.
Maybe my feelings are really lesser than before. Maybe I just already stopped trying to get to you but it doesn’t necessarily mean that I feel nothing anymore. Maybe I will always care about you but I’m no longer a part of team that will fight for you. Maybe I just gave up. And believe it or not, I’m happier with this set up.